Sleepless, on a cool rainy night...

Had an enjoyable day. Went out for picnic. Then I was back home very late, showered and tried to sleep.

Once again, I am lying in bed, tossing and turning.
After about 2 hours of failing to make myself sleep, I finally turned on my PC.

What is keeping me awake now ?
D has flown to Australia.
Reminded me that time has drawn closer for me to execute my plans to move over as well.
Something that I have logically and rationally decided to do.
(And I think this is the first time I admitted this ?)

But logic and rationale usually always fight big battles with emotions.

This time, I experience first-hand the fear and apprehension that KOP had faced, and what D must be facing now.

I can only imagine it growing in time to come...

Starting life in a new place, having to re-establish everything all over again ?
What if I can't make it ?
What if I become miserable ?
Am I stupid to throw everything that I have now ?
What if this is the worst mistake I will ever make in my whole life ?

These are the things that kept on running through my head...

And the rain is pouring outside...
Lightning flashing frequently...
Wind howling through my window...

I think I will have darker eyes, bigger eye-bags, and whiter hair for the next few months...

RTA Update

I heard more about how my relatives' RTA happened.

They were travelling along (probably a not-so-familar route) and at a turn or slope, there was a puddle of water.

The vehicle skidded and slammed into a pole (or lamp post). They were injured and shaken, got out of the vehicle. Apparently, they were hang around there for a while (how long, I don't know) and along came another car and a it happened again.

This time, the car slammed into my relatives.

Uncle and auntie died on the spot. My cousin-in-law died either on the way to hospital, or at the hospital. My cousin is stablized but require multiple operations.


Moral of the story, if accident happened, please stay away from vehicle and stay clear of the road.

More Bad News

I just heard that today, my auntie and uncle (who were staying in Malaysia) passed away in a RTA in Malaysia. My cousin is still in hospital, not sure of her condition, while her husband died as well.

Still not sure of many things, but appears to be skid gone awry. Not sure if other vehicles were involved...